To go or not to go.....

So today Curtis wants to go to the lake. It is a GORGEOUS day outside. I am sure Pixie would love the lake but I am not sure if I want to deal with the MIL. Right now the MIL wants me to apologize for something I have never done. Which I dont feel the need to do just to make her happy. What happens between Curtis and me, happens between us. If she chooses to hold a resntment about something she should not really even know about, that is not my fault.

Pixie.... she is my puppy. We picked her up at the SPCA and she is adorable! She is a 4 month old Silky Terrier X. (Crossed with what, who knows?) She loves me a little too much and often tries to bite my face, but its because she gets so excited. Last night I was lying on the couch watching a movie and she was with Curtis on a recliner. She seriously LAUNCHED herself in the air and right onto my face. Ahhh, the life of having a puppy.

my weekend

So.... Curtis went to the lake this weekend to be with his family. I stayed home staring at the mess and the piles of clean laundry that I have yet to put away. I LOVE doing laundry, I just hate putting it away. Except for the towels. I have to fold and put away the towels. It is my OCPT thing (obessive compulsive personality traits). They have to be folded the way I like and Curtis does it wrong.



OCPT is a real thing! So for all those out there that have asked themselves if they have OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder), fear not! I talked to a psychiatrist that comes into my work and asked him about it. He said that most people have OCPT so I have nothing to worry about :)



The weather has been interesting here. Yesterday Curtis and I went to the Colonial Days Fair (which was LAME especially after going to something like the PNE). Mainly we went for the mini donuts. Unfortunately, we only got one bag before it started raining like nobodys business. We waited it out for 10 min before we decided we would just go home. Walking through the fair grounds, the water was past our ankles and kept coming. When we got to our street, half of it was flooded! Sure hope the houses down the road didnt get any water damage in their basements. But then, it receeded within 5 minutes after us getting home. I guess here, when it rains, it REALLY pours!


Lucklily the rain has held out for the Thorpe Thunder! It is the baseball tournament this weekend and I have managed to make it to all of the games. We won 2 lost 1. We are playing for 2nd in the tournament now. I really dont understand half the rules about how we are playing for second.... but whatevs. Should be an awesome, nail biting game. I have been taking pictures and will be taking team pictures this afternoon.

Well, I guess I should finish putting away my groceries. I LOVE WALMART! I got a cart full of groceries (which included a lot of fresh fruit, YUM) and it only cost me $68. Where else can you do that in Lloyd? Maybe superstore.... but I hate superstore. That is for a whole nother blog!

Ok so I am not so good at blogging but half the time I feel like I dont have anything interesting to say. My life really is not that exciting. So far this year all I got is I turned 28 and the other day celebrated 3 years of marriage. I got a new to me vehicle so I upgraded from the 1990 corolla to a 2006 Pontiac Torrent. It is a sweet ride and am totally excited that I have cruise control, air conditioning and heated seats. Also its all wheel drive so I dont have to worry as much in the winter anymore. Woohoo!

We have been have some pretty crazy thunderstorms lately as well as tornado warnings. I find it intriguing. I have seen a tornado before a few years ago but I really do not know how I would feel if it was in my own back yard.

I got asked to be a MC at my cousins wedding in August. Not sure how I feel about it. Well, I said yes. Of course. But I have never done it before. I am probably tag teaming with my cousin Erin but its still one of those things that you never know how you are going to do. I mean I stand up in front of people doing lectures almost every day so it shouldnt be so bad right?

Other than that, I got nothing. Seriously. I miss BC a lot, especially lately. All my friends are having second babies and I was around for their firsts being born. That sucks. I miss my family for sure. And all I ever do is work now.

Oh and now I am not just addicted to Wok Box..... I have now fallen in love with DQs chicken fingers. They actually have the texture of real chicken meat, unlike McDs chicken nuggets.

I love!!!!

So I have fallen in love with the Wok Box. I don't know if they have them across Canada or what but they are now my favorite place to eat out. What could be better than veggies and chicken with amazing sauce with rice? Well, probably a lot, but eatting out, probably not a lot. I tried the Singapore Cashew the last time I went... it was even great as left-overs. We will definitely be eating out there a lot more often. I had so many left-overs that I am completely full.

This morning was the first time in 8 years (other than for flights etc) that I have gotten up at 6am on purpose. I have chosen this time to work out. Why? Because when I get home from work I really do not want to do anything else. So this is just day one, of hopefully many, mornings that I will get exercise. I am determined not to be lazy.

I took an impromptu trip to BC. It was hard, emotional, and fun all at the same time. It was a great opportunity for me and Curtis to seriously think about our relationship and what we are willing to do to make it healthier. I ate a lot of food, including ice cream sandwhiches for breakfast one morning. It was fantastic. Got home, weighed myself, and I was exactly the same. Now I think the pounds are actually showing up. 2 lbs. Not a ton, but enough to say, no more BC for a while hahaha. Even though I miss it, I always seem to gain weight when I go back.

Well, I should actually go and accomplish something. I am at work and dont have much to do as I am on my lunch break. There is trifle, and man did it ever look yummy. But I shall pass... the biscuits though, I may just give in!

It is 2010

So the year is now 2010. Where did I expect I would be? Really, I am not quite sure. As a child I probably thought I would be famous in some way or another or just be a mommy. Well I am definitely neither (other than my body having momentary fame in a Thorpe commercial).

Here is what I have accomplished in 2009:
-Bought a house
-Got a job as an addictions counsellor

While those are two really big deals, its hard to focus on them. I think of all the failures and dissappointments. I think about the losses and the broken hearts. I think of all the arguments and issues unresolved. In 2009, there has been a gain of 30lbs (YIKES... can you tell I stress eat?) the purchase of new clothes so pants fit, and dissappointment when the new pants feel tight.

So new years resolutions...... are they pointless? Right now, I feel like they are. I feel that if I make them that it is just something else to dissappoint myself or someone else with. Instead I will make one resolution instead of many. That resolution is to find contenment in whatever form that truly looks like for me. It may mean a lot of changes that are uncomfortable that I dread making for my happiness, and it may mean someone else has to make changes. Either way, I am going to be content and happy.... whether it means heartache, grieving loss, or just plain old stubbornness... I will be happy.