I love!!!!

So I have fallen in love with the Wok Box. I don't know if they have them across Canada or what but they are now my favorite place to eat out. What could be better than veggies and chicken with amazing sauce with rice? Well, probably a lot, but eatting out, probably not a lot. I tried the Singapore Cashew the last time I went... it was even great as left-overs. We will definitely be eating out there a lot more often. I had so many left-overs that I am completely full.

This morning was the first time in 8 years (other than for flights etc) that I have gotten up at 6am on purpose. I have chosen this time to work out. Why? Because when I get home from work I really do not want to do anything else. So this is just day one, of hopefully many, mornings that I will get exercise. I am determined not to be lazy.

I took an impromptu trip to BC. It was hard, emotional, and fun all at the same time. It was a great opportunity for me and Curtis to seriously think about our relationship and what we are willing to do to make it healthier. I ate a lot of food, including ice cream sandwhiches for breakfast one morning. It was fantastic. Got home, weighed myself, and I was exactly the same. Now I think the pounds are actually showing up. 2 lbs. Not a ton, but enough to say, no more BC for a while hahaha. Even though I miss it, I always seem to gain weight when I go back.

Well, I should actually go and accomplish something. I am at work and dont have much to do as I am on my lunch break. There is trifle, and man did it ever look yummy. But I shall pass... the biscuits though, I may just give in!

It is 2010

So the year is now 2010. Where did I expect I would be? Really, I am not quite sure. As a child I probably thought I would be famous in some way or another or just be a mommy. Well I am definitely neither (other than my body having momentary fame in a Thorpe commercial).

Here is what I have accomplished in 2009:
-Bought a house
-Got a job as an addictions counsellor

While those are two really big deals, its hard to focus on them. I think of all the failures and dissappointments. I think about the losses and the broken hearts. I think of all the arguments and issues unresolved. In 2009, there has been a gain of 30lbs (YIKES... can you tell I stress eat?) the purchase of new clothes so pants fit, and dissappointment when the new pants feel tight.

So new years resolutions...... are they pointless? Right now, I feel like they are. I feel that if I make them that it is just something else to dissappoint myself or someone else with. Instead I will make one resolution instead of many. That resolution is to find contenment in whatever form that truly looks like for me. It may mean a lot of changes that are uncomfortable that I dread making for my happiness, and it may mean someone else has to make changes. Either way, I am going to be content and happy.... whether it means heartache, grieving loss, or just plain old stubbornness... I will be happy.