Lattes and laugher

So it has been a good few days. Had Dana (Curtis' cousin) over for dinner. We havent had anyone over for a while so it was nice to cook for someone else. We all went to Blockbuster as they are closing down all over Canada and have a 25% off sale which we bought 7 movies, three of which were blueray, for $70. Not bad as most of them are pretty new. Other than the Christmas movies I bought. Boy I love Christmas.

Calli got her shots the other day and so has been feverish and a little cranky. But she smiles through it the best she can. I am so blessed by my beautiful little girl. When the going gets tough, just watch her smile and you cant help but do so yourself.

Scrapbooking, so much to do and so little time. But if I actually finish some projects I may feel a sense of accomplishment instead of having that daunting feeling by the piles that I have started but never completed. I mean, what better time than now!

Ok boring post, but i was bored as baby girl is sleeping right now. Should be up soon. Maybe I should shower :)

Sometimes I feel like the past couple of years have been a bust. Made this move to Lloydminster, left all my friends that I have had for so many years, and was working at a job thast some days I felt so useless at. Having problems with the in-laws has made the "bust" feeling even more exclamated. It is horrible, depressing, and infuriating! Then something happened the other day that made things feel a little worth it.

I ran into an old client of mine. When this individual left, i did not know how they were going to do. Facing huge life challenges which included soon to be a parent (then heard a few days later their spouse miscarried), major mental health issues which included depression, anxiety and severe OCD which was characterized by counting, washing of hands, as well as auditory and visual hallucinations. But I was wrong. They were succeeding. They were deciding to chose a positive life. And were successsful despite all the challenges. And my client said something that made it all worth it.... "You saved my life." Wow. Now of course that was followed up by me telling them how they did it themselved by making the firt choice which was to come to treatment, and then making the choices he needed to in order to stay sober. But still.... it made me feel like I helped save one life. Even with all the frustrating things that have happened since i moved here, just knowing that i made an impact in at least 2 peoples lives (the other one is a whole nother story) has made it worth it.

Then I had to ask myself a huge question.... if someone facing all these HUGE life challenges was succeeding so much, what is my problem? Yes there are a lot of issues here.... but not so challenging as a mental illness and addiction. I really need to get over myself and not sit in a funk because i feel my life sucks besides my beautiful daughter whose unconditional love has changed me beyond measure.