It was a trying weekend.  We often go to the cabin on the weekend only to have to "deal" with a frustrating person.  A person who fully believes she does nothing wrong because and I quote "my home my rules".   I know people do things because they want to help but my children already have two parents... just saying.  Frustration sets in when you have people over talking you as you try to explain things to your two year old; if it is not hard enough already for her to understand.  Then you go home only to get a flat tire on the way so you dont get your children to bed until 10pm.  Poor Calli was emotional and very tired.  Thank goodness for our DVD player and Mickey Mouse Clubhouse to distract her.

I recently watched a video on Facebook that was a woman's message before dying.  She had two young children so it really hit home for me.  Would I be able to stand in front of 600 or so people and be able to say cancer is what God's plans were for me?  The thought of leaving my babies makes my heart hurt (even if it is dying of old age in 60 years)..... so to tie this all in....

I asked my husband if our flat tire was God trying to send us a message.  What type of message?  Maybe that it is time to slow down. Maybe its that we have been on a wrong path.  Maybe its about patience.  Maybe its about relying on someone other than ourselves.  This all came shortly after a "discussion" about the frustrating person and being tired of dealing with them.  And then having a "discussion" about us.  I truly believed the flat tire was a message.

But now what?  Now that I realize it was a message what do I do with it?  I want things to be happier in our lives.  I want our relationship to be healthier.  I want to have a stronger relationship with God.  I also need my husband to want some of the same things.  So we will see where this "road" takes us.